I should use the "The Catcher in the Rye" for this post, but I used it for Holden's

This beautiful doesn't match my shitty mood. My mind is so full of college and life. Like, what if I just suck, really suck, at life? What if, when I get out of college, my life doesn't start and I don't get job? It's a possibility, BUT not really likely at Parsons. They have a good reputation and good connections....money woes....I have been on the brink of tears all day and just over college stuff. I told myself that I wouldn't cry, I wouldn't get this upset. But I am, I am drained and I am not myself today. I hate it. Every one knows that something is up & I can't hide it.