Will it work: this cure? There's no way to be sure, but I'm weary to the bone.

"All my hair's in the trash can."

It is ironic how restless I felt today. I felt like I was in the wrong place all day, like I didn't belong. I already missed Trinity, as I was sitting in Trinity. It just felt like we didn't match. I am out of place now. With Parsons on the mind, Trinity felt small and...small. I feel like I can be bigger than I can be here. There is something within me that is telling that this is not me. Who I am right now is not all that I can be.

I hate change. But, I need change, I needed a change today. I cut all my hair off, it's so short. I just made a rash decision. I haven't made a rash decision in recent memory. It wasn't very smart, but it's done & there's nothing I can do about it. My hair is gone and it's kind of symbolic, just jump in. Just do it. Just do something that I am afraid to do. Something that might now be smart, but the result will be good. Change is good. I want to jump into Parsons. I want to go to Parsons. I applied to Parsons for shits and giggles, I didn't actually think that I would get in. A couple of months ago some one once said to me, "It's not like you're applying to Parsons or anything," and now, I've gotten into Parsons. Suck on that one!! I never thought this would be an option.

I really can't explain how I feel right now & this was a very attempt to do so.